Honor Thy Mother

I want to share a video with you.

I just watched it again for the first time in seven years. It’s a video of my mother, and I hope you will watch it to the very end.

I don’t really know what inspired me to conduct an interview, but I’m sure it was the Holy Spirit. Even the questions I asked her—I sound like I knew what I was going to say. I didn’t. It was entirely off the cuff, unedited. And, I’m serious about watching to the end. I couldn’t believe the last shot. Only God!

By the way, Mother would have been 88-years-old today. Instead, of blowing out candles, though, she is in a place of incredible joy with the One her soul adores. Oh, I miss Mother daily—she crosses my mind a dozen times, or more. How she would delight in her many great-grandchildren! She would be “at the height of her glory,” as she used to say.

Yet, I would not wish her back from Heaven. Instead, I rejoice for her victory over death, and the fact that we’ll see each other again. I can’t wait to find out all she has been doing. What a life she is living now!

So, without further ado, in honor of my Mother’s birthday, I humbly invite you to watch this video. If you are in any way at all touched by what you see, will you share it? Maybe, someone you know needs to hear what she has to say. (It can be share directly from YouTube.)

Thank you for remembering Stella with me, even if you never knew her.

Counting to 30

We started the weekend trying to define the years of our life. We wanted to pick a highlight or hallmark from each year. Some years it was easy to do, others were sort of a blur. A few years, we just didn’t want to remember.

We also found that it was hard to pick a word to describe some years, because we were often having very different experiences—even though our individual experiences had everything to do with what was happening in the other person’s life.

Ultimately, looking back gave us a lot of perspective. It was informative. Interesting. I think it was a good exercise. Like Doug wrote on Facebook: “You know that God has been in your marriage when you can share with one another the best and the worst of thirty years. and yet be more in love than ever.”

Anyway, we did make a list of sorts, but in the end I don’t know if it’s worth sharing.  Our life has been complicated and wonderful, challenging and beautiful, but all that really matters here is Jesus. His hand has been there through it all, and looking back I see it so clearly, how He walked with us and led us and kept us. In the end, our marriage is something we leave to our children and grandchildren to evaluate, and I hope they see us as flawed as we are and see Him as perfect as He is, knowing that He is why we are still we. ❤

Happy 30th, Saxophone Player. God was so kind to give me you. I know there won’t be marriage in Heaven, but I know we’ll always be best friends. I love you, Doug. XO

“Does the Preacher Smell?”

There is no preacher, Bible teacher, or minister who is perfect.

We should not expect to agree with them on everything, or to even like them that much personally.

In fact, sometimes their ministry style might even be disagreeable to us. Maybe, they aren’t compelling, or too emotional? Do their words stumble out of their mouth? Or, are they too smooth? Too well-groomed? Too tan? Too casual? Too formal? The “wrong” gender?

We are picky people!

While an awkward speaker, frumpy-looking pastor, or overly-primped and powdered Bible teacher might not be someone’s preference, it should not cause any of us to reject the biblical truth they present. Being charismatic, attractive, articulate, or agreeable are not requirements for the ministry. We American Christians have made the outward things so important, but we’re wrong. Perhaps, we just don’t want Jesus as much as we want our idols, superheroes, and superstars.

In the coming days, I plan to share some Bible Prophecy messages from various speakers. None of them are perfect. Some of them I’ve had internal battles over myself, because something about them was a hindrance for me. Perhaps, a doctrinal position, their lame jokes, or their style. In certain cases, I still have to win the victory our my pettiness each time I watch them.

It’s a good thing, though. It’s good to be have my petty shallowness called out, because I don’t want to be petty or shallow. I don’t want to miss a good word, just because the vessel God chose doesn’t suit me.

So, that’s my appeal to you. Please, don’t reject a speaker, because the vessel doesn’t appeal to you. Listen first. Test it. Is the critical point he’s making biblically sound? Of course, this is good to remember in any situation where we are on the receiving end of ministry. Guard yourself against being hindered. If the preacher smells, just plug your nose—but keep your ears open. He just might have something to say that God wants you to hear.

❤️

Starting the New Year

If working hard means getting a good start to the new year, then I think Doug and I have a lot to look forward to in 2019.

We took a working vacation over Christmas and the New Year, which meant we worked at home only, no outside appointments. We stayed up late, and slept as long as possible.

We also hosted an Open House for ministry volunteers, which was a lot of fun.

Doug did throw his back out after Christmas, but I knew it was coming. The week before he had been doing a lot of lifting and moving, and I kept hearing him say, “There’s something funny going on with my back.” I also caught a head cold, but if it stays in my head, it won’t be too bad.

It’s going to be interesting this year, because we are rolling into 2019 with so much already in place. Normally, we spend January seeking the Lord for His course of action, His plan for the ministry. Well, He set the course for us before 2018 ended; we just have to keep doing what we were doing. So, we have a running start. I like it!

You know, I was thinking about the highlights of 2018 the other day. Isaac, our grandson, was definitely a highlight. How God moved in my heart was a highlight. Doug and I arrived at a new place of goodness in our marriage this past year, and that was a highlight.* It was almost like we remembered we were friends. Maybe, working together frustrates friendship. I think it might. And, HopeMail has been a very big highlight, too. I love how that is coming along.

However, my greatest highlight of 2018 is something I wanted to do all year long. I actually did work on it throughout the year, but it wasn’t until just before Christmas that all the pieces fell into place. It may not seem like a big deal, and you will wonder why it took so long, but I managed to finally finish our spare room, making it a place where the grandbabies can hangout and Doug can play his piano.

And, when those two things come together, well, my heart is pretty full.

I am very thankful the Lord did not despair of me in 2018. His kindness overwhelms me. He does love us like a Father, and we know that because He doesn’t love us any less when we’re ornery. It’s almost like He loves us louder, to make sure that in our blindness we don’t lose our way.

* I would feel dishonest if I did not add that I’ve been repeatedly cranky with him the past couple weeks, which is disappointing for me. I’ve had to apologize a lot. I want to blame my thyroid, but I think it’s more likely just ugly sin.

10 Reasons to Study Bible Prophecy

Some folks resist the study of Bible prophecy, because so much of it confuses them. Or, they don’t believe anyone can really know or understand it. If even great theologians disagree, who are they to think they can know it?

Or, they think they know enough: they know they’re born again and going to heaven, so why study prophecy? They know everything’s going to be OK for them, who needs to understand the times?

Over the years of my life, I have landed in every category I mentioned. Yet, I’ve always been drawn to Bible prophecy. The biggest problem, though, is that so few pastors and teachers preach or teach on prophecy.

Well, in recent years the Lord has brought several prophecy teachers to my attention. Dr. Mark Hitchcock is one. He is teaching in the video below. I encourage you to take time to watch or listen to his teaching. I outlined the ten points for you.

If you are curious to do more watching or listening on this subject, Dr. Hitchcock has many videos on YouTube. I will be sharing some of my other favorite teacher soon.

God bless you all. God bless your new year. ❤️

Why Is Bible Prophecy Important Now?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nr3b2Rih4yE&feature=share

1. People everywhere are thinking about it. (4:35)

2. Prophecy is essential to understanding the Bible. (6:35)

3. Special blessing is promised to those who study Bible prophecy and pay attention to what it says. (11:17)

4. Prophecy proves the person of Jesus.(13:53)

5. Prophecy protects us from heresy. (18:27)

6. Prophecy motivates us to service and godly living. (25:13)

7. Prophecy proves that God is the true God and that His Word is true. (30:48)

8. Prophecy reassures us that God is in control, and gives us peace of mind. (39:15)

9. Prophecy is a powerful tool for evangelism. (46:45)

10. Prophecy helps us understand the times. (50:00)

An Encore

Merry Christmas!

I am re-sharing a post from two years ago. I read it again today and thought it was nice enough to share, again.

Madrigal’s First Christmas

One day, I hope to find out what happens to Madrigal. I have big hopes she is having a very happy Christmas day today—and, I hope you are, too!

Personality Tests, Part 2

The upstairs neighbor popped her head in today and was telling me a little about her day. She said, “I like to _______________, because I’m a __.”

I don’t like labeling myself. I think other people label me enough, so I feel no need. Plus, I like to keep  my options open. You know what I mean?

I did read something just now, though, that spoke to me.

“_____________s process everything in their surroundings and pay attention to all the sensory details in the environment, not just the people. ____________s will often compare old and new experiences when making a decision, which slows the processing down but leads to carefully thought-out decisions. This means that ___________s have an active dialogue with themselves and usually walk around with many thoughts in their minds.”*

That last sentence was what got me. There is always so much going on in my head. It feels like I’m constantly processing data. Doug is not like this. He often does have a lot on his mind, but I know he isn’t processing data. He isn’t picking up all the stuff people are laying down. We’ll leave a meeting and he’ll have a completely different experience from mine. I wish, sometimes, my experience was like his, but he also benefits from all that I take in, so he often wants me at meetings for that very reason. That’s a nice thing.

Anyway, I’m ultimately Popeye. I am what am, and that’s all that I am. For some people, I’m enough. I call those people kind and generous friends, willing to forgive me for not being more.

*source

I’m a 14.

I just took a personality test. It’s the latest thing. My daughter mentioned it last week, “I’m a ___ and Tim’s a ___,” she laughed. I had no idea what she was talking about, until I looked at my Instagram today. Others were sharing their results of some test, and I realized it’s what was Hannah had been talking about last week. Eni-eni-gram, or something.

Well, of course, I followed the flock and took the test. With each question, I was more annoyed at myself for wasting time with a stupid test.  Oy. I don’t need anyone tell me I have a terrible personality. I already know this, OK? Anyway, at the end of the test they give you three choices, each one assigned a number, and say they’ll email you your ultimate answer. I still haven’t received the email, so I’ll never know my real number. (The 14 is my three results combined.) Good grief, Charlie Brown. 

It’s a rainy day today. In the 50’s. Not typical weather for Christmastime, but I’ll take it. Christmas is inside. I don’t need snow.

My granddaughter loves my Christmas tree. Well, she loves all Christmas trees. I’m going to be really sad to take mine down, though, because it makes her so happy each time she sees it. “Tree! Big tree!” She says it each time, as though it’s the first time she’s seen it. If the lights aren’t turned on, she will gently insist on it.

I’m at the end of a major purge of stuff. I think this is the fourth time in my life I’ve done this. It’s disgusting how much stuff I willingly burden myself with, stuff that brings me no pleasure at all. Such a waste of life.

Doug is working a lot these days. It’s all good. God has opened many doors, and that’s cause for thanksgiving. I married a saxophone player, you know? His only aspiration in life was to play jazz. I think about that and just marvel at who he is today. Would I have ever imagined I’d be married to a prison chaplain? Never! God’s ways aren’t our ways, and I’m so thankful for that.

I wanted to share my tree with you, and discovered I had deleted the photos from my phone, before uploading them to Dropbox. I did share some of them on Instagram, though. So, here is the link to the tree picture, and if you swipe you can see the ornament parade – if you’re interested. I don’t know how to reclaim photos from IG, but I’ll have to look into it. I guess I can get them from Facebook, where I shared them last week. If you happen to know about IG, though, please tell me in a comment.

Merry Christmas! ❤

 

Yes, I Have a Blog.

There are times when I just have to stop and blog.

I’m not sure when I started keeping a journal. I always wanted to keep a diary, because all the girls on TV shows kept diaries and every great writer always had one that was published after they died. I didn’t have anything to put in a diary when I was seven-years-old, but I dreamed of being a great writer. So, I made an effort

I usually finished my class work early in junior high, so I would sit at my desk and read or write stories.

In high school, I started writing letters to God. It wasn’t a regular thing, but there were just times when I needed to “talk” to someone. I still write letters to God.

In college, keeping a journal became a regular part of my life. I started college young, so I didn’t feel like I had anything to say to all those “grown-ups.” I was also too young to drive, so I spent a lot of time waiting for and riding on buses. Pulling out my journal and writing was good company. Steno pads and Bic pens were my favorite tools back then, but I’d write on anything.

After getting married and becoming a mother, I rarely wrote in a journal. I still have a prayer journal, but I’m more likely to stick a prayer request on my wall.

In 2006, when Doug was very sick, I dipped my toe into the blogosphere. Blogging was a good distraction during a harrowing season. I rediscovered an old friend.

I long ago stopped dreaming of being a professional writer—somewhere in my 20s. I just do not enjoy the business of writing, and I don’t think anyone is suffering for it. To quote my favorite beagle, “Blech!” No thanks. However, I still love to write. I still feel that need. And, a blog is good company. It’s just not always solitary. Almost any blog is going to get read by someone else eventually.

Well, I didn’t know I’d be writing about journals and blogs and writing, when I sat down with my laptop today. I happen to have my old journals downstairs from the attic, so I took a flip through them and snapped a few photos. Actually, I don’t have all my old journals; and, awhile back I ripped some pages out of the journals I kept. Not every experience or thought is worth remembering. However, I read some things just today that were nice to read, again, My old me surprised the current me. That was neat.

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My Prayer Journals these days. They are scattered around my room. I won’t show others, because some names might be known to readers.

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No idea what happened. I think this in 1986, so I was 20.

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Hahaha!!! It must have been a bad day for me to hate elephants.

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Most of my journal entries are about this dumb. LOL

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A good reason to write down the “dumb” stuff. I never thought about “Doug” again, until we met again over a year later. I’d forgotten all about meeting him in 1986, until I found this journal entry over ten years later.

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Seventeen, and in love with words.

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Be careful what you pray for, they say.

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I was so happy to find entries from during my pregnancy.

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Oh, so in love! This was in 1988, before Doug was born-again.

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I remember this.

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This is when I worked at CUB Foods in Columbus, Ohio. I was 20-years-old. Cashiering was not my favorite job, but I did finally get good enough to work the Express Lane.

One more thought on blogging…it reminds me of testimony time in church, when I was a kid. People would stand up and share whatever had happened to them that week, or whatever was going on in their life. Sometimes, they had a testimony of how God had moved, and sometimes they were asking for prayer for God to move. Not everyone shared, and sometimes it was boring or no one paid much attention, but it was mostly good. Even interesting. You got to learn something about each other, and that’s a very cool thing.

The Gratitude Challenge, Part 2

“Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it.” William Arthur Ward (1921-1994)

Today is November 22nd. My challenge is to name 22 reasons I am grateful today. I invite you join me! Post your answers in a comment. My answers are below.  Please, play along!

“Gratitude is the fairest blossom which springs from the soul.”
Henry Ward Beecher (1813-1887)

22 Reasons I am Grateful Today:

1. A friend is facing cancer surgery, and she will be able to have the surgeons she wants.

2. A friend’s son in chemotherapy has had a very excellent report from the doctors.

3. My sisters.

4. Getting eczema this summer.

5. Those people who have an opportunity to do something nice, and take it. For a moment, for just one person, they are like the Angel Gabriel, delivering tidings of great joy that bring hope for one hurting soul. For just a moment, they are like the Angel Michael, striking a blow against the enemy for a battle-weary saint.

6. My mother, for always backing me up in a fight.

7. That I have s place to live and call home.

8. The window over my kitchen sink.

9. Lucy’s curls.

10. The fact that God gave us emotions, and we get to feel all those messy feelings.

11. My joyful grandson, Isaac. His laughter is good medicine.

12. That God uses donkeys for His divine service.

13. God’s Word.

14. That my husband chooses to put away fear, and trust God. Again, and again, and again.

15. Getting to watch my daughter grow-up, and now getting to watch her and Tim grow a family. (As I was writing this exact item, guess who walked in the door? lol)

16. Having a working oven, even though I may not use it today. (Click to read why this is on my list.)

17. That I can say I have been true to my vow, in sickness and in health, and that Doug can say the same.

18. That our upstairs neighbors are so hospitable.

19. My bed and pillows.

20. That God still heals miraculously.

21. Empty storage containers.

22. My son-in-law, for so many reasons.

Happy Thanksgiving Day, friends. God bless you and your whole house!